No one likes to admit it, but this month is significant for many reasons.
Personally, I am not a Halloween celebrator. However, I think it is fitting to remember the death of our children during such a dark time in our culture’s celebrations.
Officially, October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. In the UK, they devote an entire week, called Baby Loss Awareness Week.
This month brings such a swirl of emotions. I miss my baby, but then I wouldn’t have on of my daughters.
I didn’t want to write about miscarriage, but that’s what God has called me to do.
Too many women have lost children. Too many women haven’t had the chance.
Too many dads never knew their child. Too many dads lose the mom’s heart, because they are consumed by grief.BOLD & Beautiful
I don’t understand the logic that excuses women to take their child’s life.
However, I realize how disillusioned they have become. The weight of this guilt is not bore on the mother and father alone.
On that subject, the movie Unplanned recently came out. I commend those involved in the production, for being bold and brave enough to shed the light of truth on this dark issue.
I have heard great things about this movie, but I have been cautioned by caring people, it would be too much for me.
Maybe someday, I will have the courage, and be at a place to stomach viewing it. Yet, I won’t watch it alone.
Miscarriage was traumatic, to say the least.
Though I very much support the Pro-Life cause, witnessing the graphic deaths of other children could put me over the edge.
Does anyone else relate to what I’m saying?
Initially, I remember feeling so guilty!
Guilty because I didn’t feel ready to have another baby. Guilty because I exercised too much. Guilty because I ate the wrong thing. Guilty because I took antibiotics, when I was sick, and didn’t yet know I was pregnant.
In order to move on, we must throw off the baggage of guilt. We must fight to see the silver lining and not let Satan torture us with what ifs.BOLD & Beautiful
Lean on Jesus to help you heal. You can be furiously angry, but God did not kill your baby. We live in a broken world, fully of death and disease, destruction and loss – He did not create it that way.
Instead, choose to hope in a new tomorrow. Choose to move forward, holding your precious baby in your heart forever.