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New Year, New Hope

Goodbye 2019!

I don’t know about you, but I am glad 2019 is over!

Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been all bad, but has been a huge struggle for me.

This year, I published my first book (The Miscarriage Project), launched my new business brand, Bold and Beautiful. My husband graduated with his MA, and honestly, forgot this until I was reminded, because this year has been so full – the good, the bad, and the ugly!

This year I struggled. This has been the hardest year in terms of dealing with anxiety. I don’t know which is worse, the anxiety or the depression. Either your’e too sad and sluggish to get out of bed, or you’re too jittery and scared to go to bed. It’s a toss up.

Just within 2019, we lost so many people. In our church congregation, there were 12 funerals. I lost my one and only college roommate to cancer, and one of our college brother-floor guys committed suicide, both just before Thanksgiving. One grandma-in-law died in August, and the other, was admitted to the nursing home 2 days before Christmas. Not to mention all of the miscarriages, (of people I know), experienced this year.

This was a sad, sad year people. Tears well up in my eyes as think about the preceding paragraph. So much loss.

Hello 2020!

However, every new year brings a fresh new season of hope.

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In 2020, I hope to:

  1. Beat anxiety and depression, as I gradually go off my meds.
  2. Invest in my personal and spiritual health.
  3. Be more intentional making “breathing room” in my and my families lives and schedules.
  4. Publish 1-2 more books this year.
  5. Not avoid what God has me to do, but boldly charge ahead to fulfill the call.
  6. Fully grieve those I’ve lost.

For myself, I know I have so many goals and hopes for this new year, and probably by next December, I will have forgotten them. Although, if I press on, be consistent, and remind myself what I’m aiming for, then I will stay focused on the prize ahead.

God, please help me to have a more calm and peaceful year. Give me eyes to see those I am to help, and give me strength to say no to those things that will steal my time, joy, and family time. Sustain me every moment with your love, peace, comfort, and joy. Protect me as I follow you, and watch over my family. Give me the boldness to follow your calling for my life this year. In Jesus name, Amen.

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Success/Attention Related Anxiety

For those of you who’ve been following my publishing journey, The Miscarriage Project is officially published! In addition, I am selling copies as well (1,500 to be exact).

You might assume that all the new attention surrounding my book being publshed, would make me feel complete; like I’ve finally arrived.

Wrong.

Don’t get me wrong, I am excited to see what God is already doing with the book. It’s the behind the scenes I am referring to.

To make this work, I’ve had to learn how to run a business from scratch. No marketing degree, no business degree – just a B.S. in Biblical Studies.

However, God reassures me I have just what I need to succeed. When I am weak, He is strong. With man it’s impossible, but with God, all things are possible through Him and His will.

When I think of success, I think of using my strengths to achieve. Not the case at all. With God, He gets all the glory, so He uses our weaknesses more than our strengths.

Kind of ironic, don’t you think? But He’s God, so He gets to make the rules.

Please pray for me!

I am guessing I’ve struggled with anxiety for a long time, I just didn’t know what it was. It escalated this past year, after having my youngest child.

Even in my worrying weakness of anxiety, God is strong. Even though I can’t breathe, He provides the breath of life. He makes success possible, but not the world’s measure of success, His.

Renew your mind with the reading of God’s Word. There are many nuggets of wisdom, we have to put forth the effort to find them. Let’s get digging!

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The Miscarriage Project is Published!!

For those of you who’ve been following my writing and publishing journey, of The Miscarriage Project, I have exciting news!!

Finally Published!

After a three-and-a-half-year long journey, The Miscarriage Project is finally published and to purchase, as of yesterday!!

Behind the Cover

Here is the official Cover Reveal for my special blog readers:

Cover Reveal

It may seem a bit simplistic, but that is how I intended it to be. I didn’t want to trigger anyone who might read the book, with anything too sentimental or graphic.

Instead, the idea came to me of the three hearts, you see above.

Red & Black Hearts

The red heart signifies the life of the child, but also the love of the parents for the child. The black heart signifies the death of the child, as well as the grief, pain, and loss experienced by the parents.

Golden Heart

However, my favorite heart is the gold heart, which signifies the eternal life with Jesus that child has, as well as the hope parents can have in Jesus Christ, their ultimate Healer and Comforter.

I Have a Story…

Since God gave me this idea for the cover, rich with symbolism, an awesome coincidence happened.

While I was running an errand for a friend, in an office, I spotted something – and what do you suppose I saw?

You got it! Three hearts, colored with the exact three colors you see above! This decoration had an arrow through it, which looked quite exciting in my opinion.

Words of Wisdom

However, after consulting some trusted people in my life, I decided to not include the arrow, because it may give the wrong message.

I though it would be neat, because the Bible talks about children being like arrows in the quiver of a warrior, and I loved the symbolism there .

Even though we lost these children, their lives still matter and matter for God’s eternal kingdom.

Although, to others, it may represent their death and pain, and that was not what I wanted for my readers.

The Cause

My vision for this book is to help as many parents as possible!

Here’s how you can help:

Pray!

1 – First and foremost, you can pray. Pray for the book to reach the people who so desperately need it. Pray it is a comfort for them.

Purchase

2 – Purchase a book for yourself or a friend. This way, you can share this wonderful resource and pass the word, so the book can reach farther than we can imagine! Here is the current link to purchase the book:

https://www.westbowpress.com/en/bookstorehttps://www.westbowpress.com/en/bookstore

This will take you to the WestBow Press bookstore, and you can either search The Miscarriage Project, or look under New Releases to find it.

The Miscarriage Project is also available on Amazon, and in paperback, hardcover, and ebook formats.

Donate to Hospitals

3 – I am currently sponsoring a fundraiser, raising money to pay for these books. Once these are purchased with donations, they will then be donated to local hospitals!

To donate to the Books for Hospitals fundraiser, you can follow the Facebook link below to my fundraiser:

https://www.facebook.com/donate/951374825227793/

God is so amazing! He even worked out for a friend I met through B.S.F. (Bible Study Fellowship) last year, to contact me. It just so happens she works for our local hospital’s OB department, and is in charge of their bereavement services.

Thanks be to God!

Can I get an Amen to that?! I am so beyond blessed by God’s faithfulness and I pray our pain and sorrow can ease someone else’s.

Thank you for your prayers and support through this journey! I am so excited to see God’s impact with this book and how He will transform lives for the glory of His name.