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“Unplanned” the Movie – I Finally Watched It…

As I’ve experienced a traumatic miscarriage, I hesitated. I convinced myself I couldn’t handle, avoiding it at all costs. But now I’ve watched it, and I’ll never be the same again.

My Reaction

To be honest, it wasn’t as bad as I had imagined, but I felt severely nauseous the entire time. I am so thankful for the woman, Abby, who was brave enough to share her story with the world.

“Unplanned” the Movie, 2019

No one should be badgered into keeping quiet about injustice. No one should be threatened for telling the truth. Abortion is murder, but abortion is also a deceitful lie that needs to be rebuked.

Abortion

Abortion is NEVER the answer!! Putting a child up for adoption at least gives them a chance to live!

Keeping your baby will bless you in a way can’t even imagine right now. No financial hardships or multitude of diapers can compare with how much that child will love you, and how much you love them.

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My Story

Having lost a baby myself, through miscarriage, the scene where the woman, Abby, loses her baby and tissue fell out in the bathroom, hit me hard.

That was me. After two days of cramping, spotting, and an ultrasound, the dreaded moment came anyway.

My Baby, Timothy Lyle Babbitt, 9 wks. 6 days.
He was born on May 9, 2016.

I woke up in a pool of blood, screamed, “No God, NO!!” over and over again. I ran to the bathroom and my precious baby fell out of me. I went into shock and shook on the bathroom floor.

My husband took me to the ER, but not before I told him he was not allowed to flush that toilet.

They let me cry and talk to a nurse, but basically gave me strong ibuprofen and sent me home. I lost a baby, and that was it.

The Filthiest Burial

I was thankful for the doctor telling me not to try to find my baby – too tiny to find. I think that would have been even more traumatic for me.

Instead, my precious baby boy was buried by a flush, and taken to the sewer system. This memory haunts me to this day.

My Story
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This Has to Stop!

But to think someone would choose that on purpose, kills my heart every time. No one comes away from losing a baby the same. Either way the baby dies, the mother will never be the same.

Pray abortion clinics close for good. Pray abortions become illegal. But also pray for those who’ve aborted or contributed to abortions. God’s forgiveness is more than enough for them too.

Check out unplannedfilm.com or fortydaysforlife.com for more resources and information to make a difference!

Also, to read more on the subject, check out my previous blog post: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.

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Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

No one likes to admit it, but this month is significant for many reasons.

October

Personally, I am not a Halloween celebrator. However, I think it is fitting to remember the death of our children during such a dark time in our culture’s celebrations.

Officially, October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. In the UK, they devote an entire week, called Baby Loss Awareness Week.

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Parents

This month brings such a swirl of emotions. I miss my baby, but then I wouldn’t have on of my daughters.

I didn’t want to write about miscarriage, but that’s what God has called me to do.

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Too many women have lost children. Too many women haven’t had the chance.

Too many dads never knew their child. Too many dads lose the mom’s heart, because they are consumed by grief.

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Abortion

I don’t understand the logic that excuses women to take their child’s life.

However, I realize how disillusioned they have become. The weight of this guilt is not bore on the mother and father alone.

Unplanned Movie

On that subject, the movie Unplanned recently came out. I commend those involved in the production, for being bold and brave enough to shed the light of truth on this dark issue.

I have heard great things about this movie, but I have been cautioned by caring people, it would be too much for me.

Maybe someday, I will have the courage, and be at a place to stomach viewing it. Yet, I won’t watch it alone.

Miscarriage

Miscarriage was traumatic, to say the least.

Though I very much support the Pro-Life cause, witnessing the graphic deaths of other children could put me over the edge.

Does anyone else relate to what I’m saying?

Feeling Guilty

Initially, I remember feeling so guilty!

Guilty because I didn’t feel ready to have another baby. Guilty because I exercised too much. Guilty because I ate the wrong thing. Guilty because I took antibiotics, when I was sick, and didn’t yet know I was pregnant.

Moving Forward

In order to move on, we must throw off the baggage of guilt. We must fight to see the silver lining and not let Satan torture us with what ifs.

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Lean on Jesus to help you heal. You can be furiously angry, but God did not kill your baby. We live in a broken world, fully of death and disease, destruction and loss – He did not create it that way.

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Instead, choose to hope in a new tomorrow. Choose to move forward, holding your precious baby in your heart forever.